Shit it has been a long fucking time since I’ve posted here. I did not mean that. Anyway, there’s a lot to catch you up on, non-existent reader. I don’t know why I ever thought anyone would care about me enough to read a fucking blog. My life is fucking nothing to anyone, and I have to scrape and claw every little morsel of care out of people by fucking hand. The only way I’ll ever get people’s attention is if I get fucking famous or something. Right now, no one gives two shits about me or what I care about, they don’t have the time to. I don’t blame them, or I try not to, I understand because it’s so hard for me to give a shit about people as well unless I’m interested in them because they can give me something I want or I deeply respect them.

Anyway, since no one’s reading my fucking blog, I’m just going to say some more private stuff here. Yesterday morning I got broken up with, the first time I’ve been broken up with. (I still won’t share names because I’m not a prick, hopefully) Overall, yesterday was a great fucking day, in no way because of the breakup but just because I got the new Hello Kitty game and played it with a switch. Then, I metup with my friend in town and we did some stuff. And to end off the day I played Stardew Valley with someone I’m interested in. Booyah, great day. It wasn’t until the end of the day that it finally hit me when I told someone about it and I started crying. We were only together, or even really knew about each other, for like a month. So, I’m not feeling too bad about it much anymore.

Anyway, I’ve been super busy. I got a ton of worked dumped on me this past Tuesday. I’m really upset right now. I had to half my other medication and my mood went crazy for a day, then I switched back to my old medication without consulting a doctor because fuck you I need medication and I’m already seeing a GP soon enough anyway. I don’t know what else to say.

Oh yeah, I also quit the DBT group. It just made me feel worse.

Care for me

I wish someone would just fucking care about me and provide me enough attention that I didn’t want to shoot myself all the time.

Weight loss markstone

Today marks the day I’ve lost 10 kilos!! I’m indescribably happy about that! Now just another… Hmm… 60 to go? 50? Some large number. Anyway, I can comfortably say I’m losing weight now :3 My self esteem is shooting through the roo